@ Thursday, 13. Nov, 2008 – 20:14:42
Im not sure were i was upto the last time I have had the chance of getting down and writing more here. I know that me and Chris were having a very bad patch, well we ended, had my first contact from him today. Was a bit of a shock, but I delt with it well. I do still miss him, and still think about him every day.
I also dont know what has happened to me, but I am "putting" it about quite a bit, always feeling randy. Just not very sexy...
Work full of stress...
Bath Time 
@ Tuesday, 23. Sep, 2008 – 21:42:27
Well the walls have now started to rise. can tell it in his voice. Who knows...
Was out with vic, , and well. pissed as a fart!
@ Sunday, 21. Sep, 2008 – 07:46:33
More of the same feelings about this whole situation. I have come to realise that maybe im not ready for this type of relationship - hell, the way that he is with me on the phone, i don't know. But, I do know me, and I know that I am insecure as hell, and this situation is not helping - I just have the same gut feeling that when he comes back, we will be over. Oh well - Shit happens
@ Saturday, 20. Sep, 2008 – 08:37:05
Well, i hope i did good. I set him 6 red roses, and Maurice Bear. The roses were "stolen Kisses"
@ Thursday, 18. Sep, 2008 – 13:16:03
I really cant stand this - I hate not being with him...
@ Thursday, 18. Sep, 2008 – 07:36:20
Im finding this whole thing hard. I really miss him...
I also dont know when he will be home also... its so frustrationg.
@ Monday, 15. Sep, 2008 – 18:36:00
Now, to be honest I have only known this guy for 7 weeks now. But I do think that he is the most wonderful man in the whole world, and i think that I may be falling in love with him, but Im not that sure to be honest, for all I know, I could be in love. He does make ME feel wonderful. He has taken me for who I am, and only who I am. He knows all my dark secrets(mind you I only have two of them, so its not like I have loads - lol).
But just seeing his smile (and so I have been told, he feels the same) just makes me so happy. tend to have a smile on my face when i am with him.
The accent - well, to me its something else. can listen to him for hours, the night i met him, i was lovinng the accent, and it did not bother me that he ask, "so what music do you like?"
I reply, "Well, mos..."
He just starts to babble... again, "Now this book...." - and so on... I think that it took 2 weeks before i could answer the qustion - lol
@ Monday, 15. Sep, 2008 – 18:25:16
Next he will want me to wipe his arse for him... I can’t leave work for more than 5 minutes....
"Don't do a lock cheek today, I’m in" was the first text of the day from my manager. Him being in is always a kind of good day - first not much work is done - he told me that he was told in an apprise once that he needs to keep his gob shut! Anyway, so I have my 1/4 store cheek. Last two that I have had I have going about 90% - 61% this month. Now this means that my manager will have to come to the store for the next 3 month, and do the same thing again... Now these take about 4 hours to complete - He has better things to do, I have better things to do!
I just do not know what to do now, he is really starting to do my head in... Oh, and I run the daily close, only to find that my credit cards don’t match up... Guess what, Sundays were also out...
Oh, and Chris called me, that made me smile, he seems to be doing ok, still sending texts. Just a couple a day... But it’s nice to hear his voice. It’s one of the reasons I like him "I guess" I can listen to it for hours, it’s so sexy and soft.
@ Monday, 15. Sep, 2008 – 07:20:25
I have a feeling that with this death, our relationship will not work... fucking death!
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